2nd TAP gathering

just came back from our 2nd TAP gathering... potluck at Jas's place... great gathering again! everybody brought food they made.. ok except 2 cheaters.. hahaah... i made a choc cake... looks so-so.. but taste ok la.. so tat's a relief... the amt of food was overwhelming man... took up the whole dinning table... and the living rm table... food taste good too... haha.. ok at least we know we won't starve to death in US... at least everyone could at least make something.. foresee more potluck sessions there.. haha..

after food.. chit chatted for a while.. then we played pictionary... wow everyone was so good in guessing... at times the drawing just look like nothing.. but we still managed to guess it.. hahaha... we are a high IQ bunch indeed! hahahaahah....

and drats... this guy keep putting me with this other guy just cos he's my pri sch mate... -.- but overall... he's still a nice guy la.. who likes to irritate me.. haha...

-jiahua

Faintz days

These 2 days i have been to PS.... twice! -.- once on thur... meeting fren there... and once on fri.. cos i left my file there on thur.. gotta go back and find it... -.- but the consolating part is both days i managed to take the same bus as him... hahaha.. ok crap..

the other faintz thing happened yest.. after packing my bag and getting ready to go home.. i said bye to my colleagues... but they were engaged in a discussion.. so no one replied me... so i just left.. after i stepped out of the door for 3 sec... my fren opened the door and shouted after me 'hey why never say bye to me!?!?' super loud can! ok now comes the faintz part... just in tat split sec when tat happened... he came back from toilet i think.. and was going to open the door when the door flew open and someone stepped out and shouted... hahaha... kinda stop him in his tracks... (he don understand chinese.. so i guess he must be wondering 'why is this girl shouting at tat girl?' hahaha....) and he just stared at me and i stared back.. don know how to react... and my fren was still blocking the doorway! so he just stood there and waited for us to finish our 'conversation'... but i was still stunned and speechless... finally when i came to... i decided to end it all and said 'sshh.. bye bye..' and wave her in... malu can! he must be thinking wat's with these 2 siao charbos... hahaha... (!!!-.-)

anyway lately seems like a lot of things to do... applying my supp credit card... opening my US bank acct... checking out accomm... choosing car pool frens.. etc... plus baking today for tmrw's gathering.. and meeting up with frens and stuff... 1 more week and i'll be off work! shall decide next week if i wanna extend another week... ok gotta go check out my bread... rush rush.. meeting my fren!

-jiahua

Unwell again

There seem to be a virus lurking around the office... the whole office seems to be sick... everyone is taking turns to take MC... even a few pple a day... causing some of us to have to cover their work... i haven been sleeping well lately.. so i guess tat weakens my immune system and gave the virus a chance to attack... a slight throat discomfort and a mild flu...

today time passes real slowly... don know why... usually when i go late for lunch... time seem to pass faster... cos u come back at 2+... 3... so another 3 more hours can go home.. but today after lunch.. worked till i feel tat it's time to go home.. but it's only 5pm! faintz... it's a drag.. maybe it's because of the sick mood in the office tat make things seem to go slow...

even he is sick... he seems to be more serious than me... heard him cough.. sneeze.. and blow his nose... when i walked pass his table.. saw him blowing his nose using toilet paper! literally the whole roll on his desk.. i was wondering.. where did he get tat from? cannot be take the whole roll from the toilet right!??! but anyway.. can't be bothered la..

cos too many pple falling ill... they set up those air purifying stuff with the swirly fluid inside... and even go around asking if anyone wanna wear a mask!??!!? so faints... who would wanna do tat man? and look like an alien... even the building maintenance guy kena shoot by boss.. say their central airconditioning on too strong.. too cold and caused us to fall sick... hahahaha..

sometimes i really wonder... should u praise someone who comes to work even when they are sick... or should they stay home so as not to pass the germs to others at work... hmmm....

well... hope everybody get well soon...

-jiahua

Recent thoughts

Went swimming after work yest... it's the first time i went to a pool when the sun has set... well... we couldn't really call it swimming... more like... soaking.. hahah... the most faintz thing was we only realise we forgot our goggles after we locked our lockers... my fren had on contacts.. so must have goggles to swim.. so it's either we open our lockers and pay again to close it... or we just do without it... which we chose to.. forget it... anyway we both had our own troubles tat day... so just soak and try to wash everything away... talking and consulting one another... soaked for an hour plus till our skin became wrinkled before we decide to leave... went to a nearby coffee shop for dinner... by which was already about 9.30pm... surprisingly.. the tv there's not showing soccer... hmm..

after tat... we just sat on a stone stool and talked the night away... don know whether we really have tat much to talk about.. or are we just harping on the same issues.. but well.. would say it was another of those getting to know one another's recent thoughts kinda session.. also found out tat the girls actually feels tat i changed a lot over the years... since some incident 3 years back and also my stay in Aust... both good and bad... the past 3 years had been a tough time for me... to them.. it has resulted in me being more withdrawn... and have higher standards for things around me.. be it towards other pple or myself... but i guess the positive part tat came out of it was that i manage to know more about myself in these 3 years... though am still seeking the real me...

the past 3 years had proven to me... tat i can both be emotionally strong and yet vulnerable at the same time.. that brings forth the analogy of the 'cactus'... soft on the inside but prickly on the outside in order to protect itself... the Aust stay made me realised i can actually be very determined... when i literally 'forced' myself to reach the goals... it was a surprise actually considering the lack of determination and how slack i was back in NUS times... but like i said.. this determination brings with it a trade-off... which is u get easily upset by things that are beyond ur control as compared to when u take it lightly... upset tat things doesn't go ur way or can't achieve the things u want to happen...

i guess i should try to not take things too seriously... hopefully can not get so upset when things doesn't go my way... it's funny in the sense tat u weren't tat perserverance before... now tat u r... u need to back track a bit cos u probably perservere too much and get affected with things tat probably wouldn't happen..

ok.. this entry sounds weird and out of the blue... but just a summary of some thoughts i have recently...

-jiahua

Still about him..

today went to watch 'cars' with TAP pple... 5 of us.. so thought no need to pre-book the tix.. plus now World Cup sure no one watch movie one.. plus it's a cartoon.. how wrong were we... reached Cineleisure about 7+.. wanted to get the 8.20 show.. shockingly... the tix are sold out! -.- so we decided to try our luck by going to Lido... and irritatingly the cinema there is near empty... -.- everyone's packed at Cineleisure.. should have just fix at Lido instead... the show's pretty nice.. cute and funny.. plus it's more than 2 hours.. i think.. so quite worth it for $7 la..

In response to frens who know about this guy... stop telling me to just go talk to him... i also know that!! but i can't ok!! u think go market buy vege ah? just take and pay then go... -.- not tat easy for me k... -.- i'm shy too ok... (ok though i know someone would think otherwise.. hahaha) i can talk to him.. provided he's responsive... but i'm easily affected by the person i'm talking to... so seeing him so shy just makes me feel shy too..

2ndly... to all my frens... don tell me 'he likes u'... cos i seriously doubt tat... sigh... but sometimes i just don understand those guys tat like but don dare to do anything about it.. weird eh? wanna wait for the girl to make the first move? not every girl is so brave one can...

this guy fren of mine said ' just try la.. nothing to lose.. and a bf to gain...' erhm... hmmm.. i din think tat far ok... just wanna get to know him and be frens only la.. plus i don think he's the kinda guy tat i would choose for life... plus for those who know me.. i'm those 'for the moment' players... not really a 'long-term' committer... ok.. sounds playful.. but hey i restrained myself a lot already ok... tried not to start anything which i don think is gonna work out... not even those for the 'fun of the moment' types leh... learnt my lesson.. hahaha... plus like wat my other fren said... it's not the right time for us to start a r/s now...

but on the whole.. i think being about to see him everyday is the only reason why i don mind going back to work... pple even asked me whether i wanna work beyond 30th... well... hmm... hahaha... but contradictingly.. i gotta work for only 2 more weeks... i think i'm gonna miss him after i leave leh... ok.. at least until i find another person to bio... hahahaah.... but will still miss him... to think i don think i'll ever see him again...

drats! way way past bedtime.. ok... will be zombified again tmrw...

-jiahua

Wat's wrong with this guy man?

well... life's still as boring as ever... and the every morning bus squeezing still disgust me as usual... nothing much's changed... except tat we are slowly moving nearer to the date tat i have to leave everything behind... my family.. my frens... the familiar surroundings... way of life... the pple i bio... hahahaah..

talking about tat... i realised something about this guy... coincidentally... we will always bump into each other either at the restroom area.. or the pantry where we go fill water... there's always something about doors... it's either he's pushing the door out while i was pulling it at the same time.. (and get scare-d when the door suddenly feels light or flies open in front of ur face) or we are opening and holding doors for one another... -.- ok to the thing tat i realised... he never look me in the eye... wat's wrong with him man!?! if i weren't looking straight at him.. my sideward glance tells me that he's looking in my direction... but when i turn to face him.. he'll look away.. avoiding my eye contact... -.-

today went to fill my bottle... when i reach the pantry... i saw him there and i thought to myself.. 'oh shit...' cos the coincidental thing is happening too often... i don want him to think tat i follow him ah... hahaha... but there's no way i can back away at that point cos he already sensed my presence... so no choice had to awkwardly wait for him to be done.. then after tat he'll scoot off... -.- ok maybe i think too much... but i have decided.. if i see him leave the office.. i shan't go toilet or go fill water or so much as stand up... hahaha...

ok... psychotic there again... hahaaha.. but i just don understand wat's wrong with this person la.. see each other everyday.. din even show any sign of recognition.. instead... avoid my eyes... #$@*&@!*@**@&#*... my frens say maybe he's shy or he likes u... but i don think he likes me... cos i don sense tat at all... -.- guess he's just super shy... hey i should be the one who should be shy here can!?! well... tat's a first for me... the shyest guy i ever met... hahahaah... cute though... hahaha...

-jiahua

Bored beyond words

My job has taken a turn for the monotonous... other than the daily orders... i have to check out the 4000+ customers records and update them... first day doing it today.. and manage to finish 100 records... hmm.. think i might not be able to finish them by the time i leave.... times after lunch are the toughest to past... feel super sleepy... practically stare at the screen with half-open eyes... wonder if they look anything like Garfield's eyes to others... ahhaha... and when u r in this state of trance all the time... u tend to make a few minor mistakes... like sending out emails before u attach the files... updating on the wrong page.. blah blah blah... -.-

Been trying to inject some excitment into my work... by... bio-ing pple... hahaha... there's this guy tat i will see everyday at the bus stop... and he's from my office la... i would say he is the most bio-able from the office.. so well... everyday see each other.. also no reaction... haha... been trying to find a chance to talk leh... but doesn't seem to be able to find any opportunity... sianz... even the only thing to look forward to at work also turn out to be so disappointing... -.-

well.. have another month to try to 'chance upon' and break the boredom of work... hahaha... but hard la.. subtle opportunity doesn't come by easy... well.. we'll see... if not then like wat my fren say.. go US and get an ABC la.. hahahaa...

-jiahua

Step 2

drats! something wrong with the server after i finished typing... lost my post... gotta rewrite... well.. here goes...

Step 2 marks the beginning of the visa application process... went for the session with the agency that is sponsoring our visa... the guy wanted us to intro ourselves... after tat he comment and question u on wat u said... in an irritatingly irritating manner... haha.. cocky in fact... luckily i was the last of the group.. so i had a bit of time to think about wat i wanna say and not get shoot by him... haha.. well.. we'll meet again in 2 weeks time.. to be 'trained' on how to answer the embassy interview questions.. so as to get our visa approved...

after tat i went to take my basic theory test... passed it.. haha... initially was hoping tat it could give me some advantage if i wanna take driving lessons in the states... but sigh... seems like it does not offer me any chance to skip any steps... drats... well.. at least basic is for life... won't expire... so no need to retake... so if i don learn in US.. i can still continue after i come back... so i guess i would have to rely on fellow trainees to come fetch me... haha...

went to watch Da Vinci Code today... wasn't as wow as i hope it would be... there isn't much magnificent visuals of the churches and museums... to make the feeling more grand... well.. i guess the book is better.. more descriptions.. more details... the basic idea is there in the show... but there were quite a bit of modifications... too fast pace too.. well.. i guess we shouldn't expect too much since we were warned tat if u already read the book... u will find the show disappointing... well.. ya... a little...

wat i would like is to be able to be there in UK and France.. to see those places for myself... and not forgetting those places in Rome in the Angels and Demons... would be quite an experience... wonder when i will get to go there though... hmm...

-jiahua